Serious Lack of Life

Sigh…..   Do you know what the reward is for doing a good job?   It is being given the opportunity to do it some more under ever tighter deadlines all while being dealt other side projects and irresponsibilities.   Needless to say I’m working long hours right now.  Started the day around 6am and just walked in the door from the office a few minutes ago.  Sadly i see more of the same for the next few weeks.   I’m tired, stressed, pissed cause I’m missing my friends in SL and generally wallowing in discontent.  Aemilia will say I’m working too damn hard and she will be right  (Yes hon, I said you are right now hushup).  I’ve always worked hard.  Its something I learned from my grandad and has been my excuse to hide from the world from many years.  I’d stick my head out long enough to get scared then burrow back into the comfort of the next project/job/gig and have a handy out when i asked myself why I let things/people slip away.   “I’m too busy..” I’d tell myself then lose the thought in the nice haze of technical details.  I don’t think that is what I’m doing now… but to be honest I’m too fucking tired to psychoanalyze  myself  right now.   Its tough keeping the pace i did when i was in my 20s *chuckles*.  Anyway,  I’m gonna have a martini and drop into SL for a lil bit before going nappy for a couple/three hours.   Dream Sweet all