A Marathon Post!!! Catching up…

Wow… i’m dragging.    As we all know I’ve been working hard in RL…  Too hard some will say.   Due to a number of things (including sales/management insanity) the company I work for has more contracts to work then we have people to work them and is in the middle of restructuring our team leads to cut costs/increase profits/make the worker bees bug fuck nuts!!   I’ve gone from managing 1 team of 8 security specialists working at most  2  engagements at one time to 1 team of 12 sec geeks working 5 projects in 4 TZ and a system development team of 8 working a project that is 60 days behind schedule and has serious billing issues to the client.  On top of all this I’ve been pulled to work as part of an team doing a full audit on a Federal facility not because I have the spare time or need the extra work but because I happen to hold the correct freaking background investigation that makes it easy on the corp get the proper security clearances!!!   Its such a joy to be given all this opportunity to excel….   but note to management….   I don’t want to excel!!  I want to be middle of the road, adequate, freaking  mediocre for FFS!!!  So all you fucking mgmt monkies get on that and leave me alone so I might have enough energy to be like creative and shit!!!!  *panting… heart racing… blood pressure rising…*  must… choke…  something!!

Ok calm again…  sorry as you can see I’m just a lil strung out.  Prolly do to serious lack of sleep this weekend.   I wasn’t working,  well not as much as I should have, but my neph came back in from Iraq late Friday Night!..  He is home, or at least states side,  for a while…  all in one piece, no perforations or serious injuries.  Yay!!!!!  I knew he as coming home and I thought I would miss him but the silly boi set a new speed record just stopping long enough to turn in equipment and get his leave papers then jumped a flight home.  Picked him up at the airport at 2am on Saturday, still in his uniform covered in iraq dust.  Stoopid kid had not told his mom he was coming which will cause me some grief but…  fuck it…  he’s home!!!   Yay!!!  So I spent Saturday contributing to the delinquency of a minor (isn’t it stoopid that he can go places to kill and be killed but can’t come home and buy a fucking beer?).  Drinking with him, listening to him talk as he unwound, I looked for the geeky lil boy underneath the hard eyed shooter that sat across from me and cried inside cause I didn’t see him anymore.  Another fucking casualty.  I am very proud of him though,  He volunteered to join and volunteered to become a hard ass Ranger even after talking to his friends that had already served time in Iraq and Afghanistan.  I dropped him off at his mom’s house  Sunday AM much to her surprise as he had not told her he was coming home for leave.  I’m sure this is going to come back and haunt me as I’m not on the best of terms with all my still breathing “family” type people.  So hugged the boi as my sister glared the headed into work…  I won’t see him until he gets his next leave but at least he won’t be in Iraq until after August some time.   So he is safe for a while.

Spent Sunday catching up from being a slacker on Saturday  (had a good excuse I thought though)  got home after 10pm again and fired up some jobs that needed to get finished… and find I’ve missed everyone again  *pouts*.   Did find Sysis on-line and prowled around with her.  Helped her workup a new look,  Siced her on Aems for face tweaking  (thanks hon…  great job as usual).  Finally crashed around 2am for a couple few hours then got up to pack and head to the airport.  Got there in plenty of time to grab some breakfast at a nice table hidden in the corner  (see Ames I am eating) and dove back into SL hoping to find Ames… and didn’t   *pouts some more*.  Did see Brandi ( a friend from Germany) on-line and hand a good chat via IM.  She was surprised to find I played in hard RP places like Midian and Lost Angels and had a taste for the D side in D/s play.  She is somewhat subbie but has never explored that even in SL which surprised me so we hand a good convo on that subject while I waited for my flight.   Once I landed and got checked in at my hotel (short flight from ABQ to LAS) I found I had some slack time before my the meeting I had to be at so.. got to dive back into SL again and  woot!!!   got to spend some time with Anne in another really dark RP session.  I’m finding I have some very very dark corners of my mind, and am ok with that  *smirks*.  Was hoping to see Aems and introduce before we both had to go but missed my Aems again  *pouts and cries a lil*.

So i’m sitting here in the god awful briefing trying to stay awake by keeping y’all upto date.   I hope things slow down soon.  I’ve been promised a couple of days off after we wrap this job up.   But promises are like air…  so we will see what happens in a couple of weeks.   Gotta run all.   take care..  hope to see peeps on line later in my evening.   The choice will be between seeing friends and sleep…   Friends are far more important