A Decision Made…

Hello all and welcome to another day in paradise. Been working way to much these past few days. Lots of long hours with the evenings filled with after hours (usually after 10pm) testing and the days filled with reading documentation, interviewing people, and writing up results and analysis papers. All this plus trying to squeeze in a little sleep and eat time…. FUCK!!!! I need another job!

And I have been trying! With lots of resumes, some interviews, lots of rejection letters to show for it right now. Basically… no one wants me. No one want a 40 year old geek with almost 20 years experience in the game. Companies can pay a kid outta college much less and when I indicate that I am willing to take substantially less then I make now I get rejected ’cause “something is obviously wrong with her” Which we all know there is… but not with my ability to do the JOB! In fact the only offers I have received is to go to work for a couple US company’s doing work in the Mideast… The best offers have been to go to Iraq.

So with this overwhelming evidence of a dead end career or a career that takes me to a place that can get me dead I started looking at my skills to see if it might be possible to look at a new path. And you know what?…. I have no other skills! I’m not good at anything else. Sooooooo…. I guess that means that I will be looking at these “opportunities” in Iraq etc. Aside from the risk of getting seriously dead (even this is not a big deal) there real is no downside to doing this. I’m completely alone in the world so its not like I’ll be leaving anyone behind. I’m not active sexually or socially outside SL so no big loss there. I live in an apartment that i don’t see 2 to 3 weeks of every month so its not like I have anything I’ll miss there. From what understand there is very limited connectivity in the places I may be working so my SL time may be a thing of the past. But, I’ve let those I really care for slip away which is when all is said and done just another scar… not a big thing I guess.

While I type this… I realize there is nothing and no one holding me here… not a damn thing. So I am going to explore going to the Mideast and hope I can land in Kuwait or the UAE as opposed to Iraq. I’ll keep everyone informed as to what happens but if I drop out of sight you have a good idea where I might be at.